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Who Am I?


I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in Me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing.” John 15:5

I get hung up thinking about all I’m not. I’m not bold in sharing my faith. I’m not always the loving, giving person I know God wants me to be. I get discouraged when I don’t see the growth I believe God wants in my life. But I’m not the source of strength or truth. I need to absorb the fact that I can’t produce one good thing in my own effort. If I’m helpless apart from Him, then who am I?

I am…

A branch and Jesus is the life-giving vine.

A creation not the Creator.

A pencil not the source of truth

A reflection not the light.

A servant not the master.

A voice not the message.

Gifted not the gift-giver.

A messenger not the message.

A channel not the source.

Forgiven not sinless.

A singer not the song.

God is…

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Grandma’s Love


My grandmother’s hands

folded in prayer,

are an image of love to me.

Countless hours she spent

on her knees

praying her family through.

She prayed her three sons through war,

God honored her prayers,

by miracles they were saved.

In earlier times,

there was I know,

anger, difficulty, and pain.

But the grandmother I knew

was softened by time,

by the Spirit, and by prayer.

She loved the Lord,

and prayer was her closest friend.

My grandmother’s hands,

worn from time,

I see clasped in prayer for me.

Her greatest desire to see me serve the Lord

and follow his word each day.

I don’t know exactly what she knows of me now,

but I believe she still sees and prays.

In the midst of the joy she knows in the Lord,

she still reaches out to me.

“I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and in your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded, now lives in you also.” 2 Timothy 1:5

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Offer All Parts to God


Scripture – “Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to him as an instrument of righteousness.” Romans 6:13

Observation – Don’t offer any part of yourself to sin instead offer every part of yourself to Him as an instrument of righteousness. Offer every part: mind, thoughts, heart, soul, body, feet, hands, mouth, eyes, sexuality, words, actions, gifts, and even weaknesses and sins. Offer it all to Him.

Application/Prayer – Father, show me how to do this. Please help me live as an instrument of righteousness not as an instrument of wickedness.

Lord, I offer to you my mind, my inner being that can’t be explained. I give to you my thoughts where it all begins. Please take my heart and soul— the essence of my being. I give to you my hands and feet; take me where you want me to go. Holy Spirit help me guard my eyes and control my tongue to your glory. Let my actions honor you. May my gifts and weaknesses be used for your purposes. I yield to you Father. I can’t do it in my strength. Please let your will be done in me. I rest in Your grace knowing Your love is unfailing.


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Change Joy to Gloom

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Scripture – “Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom.” James 4:9

Observation – There’s a time to let go of joy and be dejected and gloomy. A time to be downcast. That’s when we’re convicted of our own sin. When we see our own selfishness, pride, and ugliness of heart. At that point God wants our hearts to be downcast. He wants us to humble ourselves in genuine sorrow over our sins. He doesn’t want us to be happy in sin. We’re to humble ourselves, confess and turn to Him. James also says, “Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.” v. 10

Application – My heart is heavy because of my impatience, pride, self-focus, complaining spirit, and self-indulgence. I feel weak and helpless. I want to be a loving, kind, giving woman but that’s not my natural bent. Yesterday, I pitched a terrible fit because things didn’t go my way. I let my heart be filled with grumbling, complaining, negativity, and self-focus. I know God loves me. I know my soul is secure in Jesus. My life doesn’t always show that.

Prayer – Please forgive me Lord. I can be such a mess. Please take over in my heart. Help me today to walk in Your strength. I can’t do it Lord. I need You. Please have mercy and work through me in spite of my weakness. You said when I’m weak, You’re strong. Please be strong in me. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)


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Broken Heartland


The Heartland of America is devastated. After an historic weather pattern including a bomb cyclone, we are reeling. The losses pile up. Lives, homes, businesses, farms, ranches, livelihoods, pets, livestock, grain, clean water, infrastructure, possessions, and for some, hope. But we have grit, resilience, neighbors, helping hands, love, and most do have hope. Help has come by boat, plane, helicopter, horseback, trains, truck convoys, and those wading through poisoned water. Help has come in piles of donations. Help has come from all directions. From more than half the states in our union, the National Guard, individuals, Organizations, churches, FEMA, friends, and strangers.

Most of all we have not lost what matters most—God’s love. God is with us and He will never leave us.

Pray for the heart of our country! Especially Nebraska, Iowa, South Dakota, and Missouri.


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One Last Tear


I wrote this when my mom passed away a couple of years ago. I’m so thankful my sisters and I were able to be with her at the end. I miss her:

“The life of mortals is like grass, they flourish like a flower of the field; the wind blows over it and it is gone, and its place remembers it no more.” Psalm 103:15-16

My mom’s breath began to slow and then there was one last breath. The first sound I heard on this earth, my mom’s heartbeat, was about to stop. Sobbing, my two sisters and I clung to her as a single tear rolled down her cheek.

I gripped her hand as it became as lifeless as an empty glove.

One last tear had been shed.

Her body was an empty shell left behind.

Here are lessons I learned:

Please click to read: – One Last Tear

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Letting Go


Speak to me Lord in the stillness of this moment.

Use the quiet to open my heart.

Help me let go of self-protection.

Help me trust whatever you say and obey without hesitation.

Help me stop managing perceptions while making decisions based on what I think I can control or handle.

Help me take a leap of faith into the sea of obedience to your word.


Please help me begin though my steps may be small.

Help me put away distractions and listen without hesitation or resistance.


I know you love me with an everlasting love.

I know I’m yours forever and always.

I know all my sins are covered by the sacrifice of your blood.

I know I still live in a weak, fleshly tent that seeks for self and fails daily.


Please be made strong in my weakness.

Please help me let go and die to self so that I can truly live.

Help me trust that whatever you call me to do, wherever you lead, whatever you allow is for your best in and through me.

I want to repent of thinking I know what is best for me. Help me Jesus.


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